Well, That Was Quick

I love how, the day after I vow to not put myself down, I have one of the most discouraging days and end up crying about it for most of the night. I need to stop vowing things because the opposite usually happens.*

I’m trying to focus on the possible positive outcomes, or remind myself that unhappiness is the best motivator for bringing happy stuff into your life, or just be grateful for everything that I have, that millions of people would kill for.

It’s just hard when people make it clear that they don’t believe in you. Or, when you tell people that their actions are hurting you and they do everything short of saying that they don’t care. Can I still believe in myself when that happens? Can I care about myself?

Do YOU believe in me? I believe in you, invisible Internet readers. I do.

I just feel stuck today. But if I’m really going to do this, the first step is to stop feeling trapped and start finding a way out. Clap if you believe in me; I’m fading fast.

*I vow to always be fat and totally poor and never win the lottery!!


Filed under The Year Without

5 responses to “Well, That Was Quick

  1. I believe in Stephanies. *clap clap clap*

  2. Jane

    I believe! I believe! You, Stephanie, rock. Anyone who says otherwise is a class A douche bag. πŸ™‚

  3. I think you are amazing, and truly believe you can do anything you put your mind to. I know it’s rough to

  4. be so strong all the time…but you’ve gone through all of it with such grace and badassery, that I know you will continue to encompasse all the things (being smart, witty, clever and creative) that make your friends and boyfriend love you, and numerous people respect you.

  5. Thanks guys! That was much needed. Not back to 100% yet, but getting there.

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