There is a weird clicking noise coming from my ceiling, and it’s driving me absolutely bonkers. Mike thinks my room is haunted, which I guess is cool but whatever. If they can’t fix it, I’m going to have to move. And either way, Tony is going back on the road and I’m going to need a new roommate (hint hint, JOSH).
I’ve been thinking a lot about my New Years resolutions, and I’ve come to the conclusion that this year, I just want to have a great time. I just want 2007 to be awesome. So that’s my resolution. Be Awesome.
2006 was okay and I did some cool stuff. But for the most part, it flew by at an alarming rate and I’m not really sure I accomplished much. So this year, it’s all about doing more of the things that are good for me, and less of the bad.
Go out more. Stay home less.
Listen more. Talk less.
Smile more. Cry less.
Move more. Sit less.
Read more. Watch less.
Hug more. Myspace less.
Live more. Reflect less.
I suppose this means that I can’t resolve to stay away from boys again, although that was by far the most rewarding resolution I’ve ever made. I met an insane amount of cool people last year by NOT dating, and they’re all so different and I learn a lot from all of them (one is a youth pastor and another is an athiest, but they are both drummers, which is one of those dichotomously ridiculous things that seems to happen only to me).
I loved a lot of things about my life last year, but I absolutely hated myself. That’s probably the main reason I stayed away from everyone – not just boys, but all of my friends, too. I hated everything about me, and I wanted to stay home and fix all of those things so everyone else wouldn’t have to deal with it. I think I’m getting used to myself, though, so you’ll probably see more of me. I hope so.
One of the only things I’m really satisfied about from 2006 is this site… I think I’ve finally gotten into the groove with what I want to accomplish with Shortcake – what I want to share, how I want to write, etc. So many more people read this than I ever imagined, and you guys are all so nice to me… I’m not used to so much positive feedback. A lot of you have even started writing, too, or sharing the stuff you’ve already written, and it fascinates me to no end (and makes me jealous, because you’re all so much better at this than me without even trying).
I used to vent about so many things that were horrifically personal… but eventually so many strangers started reading this that I felt the need to put a positive spin on everything, and keep all of the private stuff to myself. It’s really branched out to my actual life… I instantly separate the good from the bad, and I instantly rationalize, relate, and basically suck it up and move on.
I realize that I’m rambling (and hogging the computer from Tony) but I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK INTO MY ROOM. That noise is really driving me insane.